Tuesday, May 27, 2008

All I need is to be free...

Some days, you just want to be plain lazy, even when you are at work or whatever.
 
Like while away your time, laze around, maybe sleep a bit, stretch a little- O languorous summer afternoons, how I crave for thee...
 
I wish I was at home, watching TV or the Bridget Jones movie which I missed, an egg sandwich in hand, a cup of hot milky coffee, the right sugar, the right filtering, and coffee should be Bru - No nescafe, no Maxwell, no nothing else!
 
I wish my F was not sick and didnt have to miss his school. I wish I could lose all the weight that I wish to lose. I wish I could drive as well as I imagine. I wish I was in Bangalore with my mommie darling, I wish I had a magic wand and make Fa see the light of reason, I wish Fa could balance between mommie and her hubby, I wish I also lost weight, I wish I won a lottery, I wish I qualified for his certifications soon and got the wunderjob that he wants, I wish I could fly, I wish I had a bunch of maid of orleans[ jasmine] on my table right now, I wish I was eating soanpappadi[ only haldiram's] right now, I wish I could join Bharathanatyam classes again, I wish I could take singing lessons, I wish I could complete the book I so want to write, I wish I could go skiing in the alpines, I wish could decorate my home with fresh roses every single day, I wish my dying Fern would revive, I wish at least one of the RamaThulasi sprouts made it to a big plant on my window sill, I wish I could always wear glass bangles, rainbow colours, even to office, I wish N's baby got well soon, I wish Sure got a job, I wish someone could walk, I wish V would reconcile his differences with his gf and marry soon and have babies, first a girl and then a boy, I wish S's hubby wasn't impotent, I wish Mishmas to get married soon, I wish Me to find her bearings, set her priorities right and get married to a normal decent person, I wish I could learn to play Papa kehte hai on guitar, I wish I and me died together at the same moment, I wish we live to be real old and real happy and real healthy and F and I are well settled and fulfilled in life, I wish we both walk hand in hand till the end of time and disappear on the sands of time, I wish I could see Bi and Bi and S and R, I wish I wouldn't have wrinkles even when I turn 50 or 60, like Shobha de or Vandana Luthra, I wish I could go on a world tour every year from this year, I wish I could build our dream home, and wake up to the sounds of bird twitters and stream gurgles every single morning, I wish I could be an author like Paulo Coelho, write biennial books, have the same will and righteousness in life, I wish I won the booker, pulitzer or nobel for writing, I wish I would live a fulfilled and enlightened person, I wish... I wish ...I wish...
 
I wish for the stars, I reach for them...
 
Some day I will be truly free....
 
 

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